The Spiritual Experience for me was like having my programming rewritten to become attuned to the directives of the Universe.
Sobriety was the reason I became willing but what I received was the key to the greatest life I could imagine.
The steps were like quantum shifts that combined to form the greater experience. The quanta sometimes came suddenly, the greater experience came over a longer period of time.
In the first step i had an awakening to the truth. I experienced total acceptance of my condition. The walls of denial and delusion were smashed.
In step 2 I experienced a reversal of paradigms in which reason became the construction of faith not the antithesis to it. It suddenly made more sense to believe than not to.
In step 3 I experienced power for the first time, power that removed the obsession to use.
Steps 4 through 9 got me reconnected to the stream of life and power began to flow through me.
Steps 10, 11 and 12 are where i experience growth and regeneration of the experience.
The experience happened in waves but is also something I must to keep active. It is "vital" in both the sense of "critical" and the sense of "alive".
My experience continues to be re-vitalized. Sometimes there's banging and heat and sparks fly, and clouds explode. It doesn't feel good while I'm being re-forged. But when I get through it is something new and entirely more effective.
Today I feel like God has given me everything I need, power, peace of mind and a sense of purpose. With that have come a wife, beautiful kids, great friends, and a good livelihood. The circumstances in my life are often difficult but my relationships and my acceptance are wonderful.
Oh yeah, and I don't have to shoot dope today.
